Thursday, September 10, 2015

Well...this is embarrassing.

Well... this is embarrassing.
I sincerely can't believe I haven't written since January. Of course, I started Vlogging here and there which kinda takes the place in some ways but NEVER along the lines of the art of...writing. 

So... please pray.  Has there ever been an entry when I didn't ask for prayer in some way? hehe.  I'm sure there has but when praying is like breathing in your life it is a given that you would request the support of others in the same way.

I am 'job searching.'  Oh, man.  What a gig.  If you haven't done it in recent years let me refresh your memory.  Good gravy.  I have been so blessed in my jobs over the years.  My last couple didn't even require searching- God just walked me right into them and it was so obviously His will.  As a matter of fact.  That is literally true of all of my jobs.  I have never had a job that wasn't just a smooth transition into that organization or  position.  They have each been ordered. From my first grocery job as a bagger to a Manager of my own department, into Missions and then my Administrative Assistant job with Bethany.  I've been super blessed.  I knew that- but it is a real reminder when you are looking and looking...and looking... that you realize.  Man.  So THIS is what people go through. 

It's not that I don't have confidence that I WILL get a job.  I mean, you hear of people searching and just NOT finding a job.   What a heart breaker.  And I am grateful that I don't have children depending on me or a landlord breathing down my neck.  But- I am in need of a job.  So I have been...searching.
Instinct first says to go back to your roots.  So I have applied for retail jobs.  I've been looking for something part time to supplement my evening and pet sitting jobs.  You question how hard to fight for it and really make it happen.  (How many times do I go in and shake the manager's hand?) After all... I'll do what I have to do but how much more grocery can my body handle? Oye.
I've applied for part time, I've applied for full time.   I've applied for retail outside of grocery. Department stores are somewhere I've never served but sign me up for the employee discounts, right?!  I'm a clearance girl anyway so I could really do some damage.
I've checked out local and semi-local.  I'm really ready for a change so I've started applying in dream area's.  I mean.  Why not, right?  Close enough to home in case of an emergency but far enough to start anew.  Why not start anew.  All I have is ability to start anew.  Come on, Anew!!

It's a different world too, because applications are all online now.  You might not even have the opportunity to look someone in the eye and shake their hand.  Drat.  This is my favorite part!  How are you supposed to see how groovy I can be if I can't shake your hand and make you chuckle at least once?!  It's exhausting.  Cover letters, resume's, praise God for a letter of reference. I am so, so grateful.  
 I'll do better at keeping you posted.  I just know you care so much ;)  And truly, any prayers would be so appreciated. 
Take care, friends.