So… I’m
starting this 40 day fast.
It’s not
because I am some spiritual giant. I
have been feeling the tug to do a ‘Silence and Solitude’ but am not really at leisure
to make that happen so-when a beloved friend of mine started talking about his
desire for a spiritual revival and fasting the next forty days it didn’t take
much for me to chime in… ME TOO! Iron sharpens iron and I love it!!
So, for me,
a fast is not generally food. I can fast
sugar, or something specific but I need protein every few hours so when I fast
it tends to be things like ‘all TV, secular music, any outside source of
influence’ sort of gig and it never fails to be powerful. So today is day 1 of No Netflix (gasp!- she’s
so brave!) or anything aforementioned, with the exception of sermons, messages,
lessons, and perhaps the Giants and Warriors… I’m not sure, hehe.
I’m seeking
some clarity on big issues. When aren’t
we, right?
But I so
desperately need direction and I KNOW God is faithful to give it so I am
digging down, pressing in, seeking hard after His heart. I found this song recently on YOUTUBE. I love that Bethel church posts their worship
because you can soak for loooong periods of time which is what it takes for me
to settle down and find the sweet spot.
Putting the concerns of the day and the laundry list aside to feel His
presence and enter into His courts with thanksgiving and praise. The lyrics are, “All I want is just to know
Your heart so will You keep me here until we’re one.” Over and over: All I want is just to know
Your heart so will You keep me here until we’re one. I know sometimes in modern worship people get
annoyed by singing the same thing over and over again and I get that. Sometimes it’s too much for me too, but
sometimes… sometimes… it frees you from thought and allows a true meditation of
the words being sung to soak into your soul and meet healing. Submission to them, agreement with their
sentiment until it is truly your hearts cry.
All I want is just to know You more so will You keep me here until we’re
one. ALL I WANT IS JUST TO KNOW YOU MORE
SO WILL YOU KEEP ME HERE UNTIL WE’RE ONE!!!
This fast is an attempt to do just that.
Come to the place of knowing Him and being willing to set aside anything
that hinders and run full force into His heart and will.
Please,
please pray that He will grant me the grace of addressing any and all that
needs to be addressed and come out with a clear direction for this next season.
I will keep
you posted ;)
Here’s the
song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4H9AcCXZMVs
The part I
refer to starts at about 19:20 but if you can I encourage the whole ride.
