I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY!!!
I have told myself day after day 'just blog, Leah! Write a blog!' but... I haven't. Obviously. I'm positive no one's lives have been that greatly affected by this fact so I have kinda let myself slide but for those of you who are so gracious to keep up, I sincerely do apologize.
What a crazy ride being home for these summer weeks has been. I return to Kona in just two short weeks and feel the anxiety of all of the meetings I still need to have. Praise God, however that all I came home to accomplish- by His grace- has been accomplished!! I have insurance for this next year, both car and health, I have gained the support of a committed few to be members of the Team that will be regularly praying and some financially supporting the kingdom work that God is doing in my life. I taught the Inductive Bible Study Seminar last Saturday and after much stress I can say it went well. It was a small turnout but I am absolutely confident it was exactly what God would have it be. I confess I dropped the ball on better advertisement as my trepidation got the better of me. I have visited with family and friends, held my beloved dogs and cat, touched base with those who are dear to me and had the overwhelming miracle of God confirming His word of sending my truck over to Hawaii become a reality!! THAT is the story I will tell...
As some of you have read I was debating selling my beloved truck. I know we are not supposed to have treasures on earth. Getting this truck was a miracle in itself. I have had it for 10 years now. It is literally my only asset. I have held loosely and given up most of the ties that bound me to go to Kona and invest my life in serving God and in His Word. This last season I was praying about selling my truck. I made a further two year commitment to be in Kona and I was not willing to pay the (ever increasing) price of having it just sit in my mother's drive way- which wasn't good for the truck, or for my pocketbook. I really believed God had told me He was going to get it to Kona. Whaaaaat? That just seemed "too big" to me. How the heck? But I had a buddy move to another island, and as we spoke one night he told me that is exactly what he had done with his truck. I told him I needed the details about how that had worked. He gave them to me, and as I googled different options I found that it would cost $1025. to ship. Well- I have seen Him do greater things, but still it seemed like an awfully lot. I came home, weeks went by... finally I came to exactly four weeks until I had to return to Kona. I prayed, "Oh, Lord... I know you are never late, but I sure would appreciate you being early on this one. I really don't want to have to get down to the wire wondering, 'is this actually going to happen' or what arrangements I need to make for my truck, or sell it...? Well THAT AFTERNOON I got a text from some dear supporters and friends of mine. She said, "I have your support for this month- how do you want it? OR if you feel that you have your monthly expenses met for the year, we could give it to you in a lump sum which would get your truck over..." I WAS FLOORED. FLOORED!!! "Um... YES PLEASE!" I wasn't positive of the exact dollar support for my monthly expenses but I knew that God was not going to leave me hanging. She gave me the check. I have booked the date to drop my truck off in Oakland, Ca... and they will ship it to Hilo, HI. I will have to get a ride to the other side of the island to pick it up. I need to pay for gas for the person who takes me to Oakland and the person who takes me to Hilo- but its happening! It's really happening!! I got new car insurance that is MUCH less than the previous insurance that I had (we won't go into that story)! I am a sistah that is hooked up! Having a vehicle will bless the school, students with needs, and of course, me personally!! I still plan on walking where I can, but actually getting to see some of the island this year is an exciting thought!! woot woot!!!
I continue to be grateful for the prayers and support I have received. It feels so amazing to see and feel God's hand so completely upon me. Why do we choose to live anywhere but the center of His will? It is astounding! Even as I write that I know that the boldness in saying so will rouse the heart of my enemy to lash out at me with temptations to get me side tracked. This is his ammo and how he functions. Tough Turkey Toes. God is my provider and my protector! I will cry His name from the mountain tops giving Him Glory for ALL He has done and continues to do!!! More, Lord!! I want MORE OF YOU AND OF YOUR SPIRIT!!! I cannot wait to see lives changed and healing come in YOUR Mighty Name in this next season! I embrace my own season of wellness and know that all of the suffering has been for the sake of the call that will work together for good! This is a lot of exclamation points but I am excited!
Love you guys- xoxo
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Sunday, July 14, 2013
It has not Slowed Down!!
Hey, Sweet Friends...
Just a quick update. I have been back home in California for just about 2 weeks now. It has not slowed down as I was home for only 3 days before driving to Southern California to visit my 'other parents', up to Temecula w/ my friend from school Femi to visit one of our bible teachers; the one and only Steve Gregg with his absolutely gorgeous and gracious wife Dayna, then back to Palm Desert w/ the folks, then back to LA to visit a girlfriend of mine from high school for a couple of days and theeeenn... pause for breath... over to a celebration of my oldest friend's 20th wedding celebration! I was her original maid of honor and was so thrilled to get to be with them as they renewed their vows. I put over 1500 miles on my truck and was... exhausted to say the least. So now I have been setting dates and making plans, getting quotes and going through items for a yard sale (on the 20th- come one come all!) Next week I am honored to speak at my brother's church (it is my mother's church, too, when she is in California.) I am nervous about it- I will be sharing a brief testimony, about YWAM, and about the Chronological school of biblical studies I just finished as well as about the two year commitment I have made and what that looks like. Please pray for the Holy Spirit to go before me and that it will be whatever God intends for it to be!! Thank you...
Tomorrow I start making phone calls to meet with people one on one regarding support for the next two years. I have been full of the fear of man and rejection regarding these meetings. Church this morning was so good as they reminded that fear is totally from the enemy (which I do know, but it is always a good reminder) and that God did not give us a spirit of timidity, that perfect love casts out all fear, and that as big as the 'mountain' in front of me is... it will never get any bigger than what it is...where as I can always grow and get bigger spiritually! Get out of my way, mountain, I am doing God's will here!! Halla!! :) My precious girlfriend from school reminded me that what I am doing is priceless and the lives that will be changed are a worthy cause! I am so grateful to have Truth spoken to me. I am even more grateful that God has already chosen these team members and roused them towards how He would have them participate in all He will be accomplishing in these next two years. Sending His word to the nations; so cool.
As mentioned before, I have started setting dates to the seminar's that I will be teaching on the Inductive Bible Study method. I know some of you have asked (Rhonda and Jungmee!) when, where, etc... so the first one will be at Bethany Christian Services in Modesto on Saturday August 17th from 9am-1pm. 3048 Hahn Dr. Modesto, Ca 95355. It will be $20. per person. Please email me at leahdesalles@gmail.com to register. I look so forward to sharing with you!! (Aaaaand I am soooo nervous about it so pleaaaaase pray!!)
I think I will wrap it up there... keep it simple. I would sincerely appreciate your prayers regarding "the team" God is raising up, these seminars, and the yard sale I will be having! THANK YOU SO MUCH... blessings!!! xoxo
ps... also, please be praying for our team teaching bible to pastors underground in a location I can not mention on the internet!! thank you!!
Just a quick update. I have been back home in California for just about 2 weeks now. It has not slowed down as I was home for only 3 days before driving to Southern California to visit my 'other parents', up to Temecula w/ my friend from school Femi to visit one of our bible teachers; the one and only Steve Gregg with his absolutely gorgeous and gracious wife Dayna, then back to Palm Desert w/ the folks, then back to LA to visit a girlfriend of mine from high school for a couple of days and theeeenn... pause for breath... over to a celebration of my oldest friend's 20th wedding celebration! I was her original maid of honor and was so thrilled to get to be with them as they renewed their vows. I put over 1500 miles on my truck and was... exhausted to say the least. So now I have been setting dates and making plans, getting quotes and going through items for a yard sale (on the 20th- come one come all!) Next week I am honored to speak at my brother's church (it is my mother's church, too, when she is in California.) I am nervous about it- I will be sharing a brief testimony, about YWAM, and about the Chronological school of biblical studies I just finished as well as about the two year commitment I have made and what that looks like. Please pray for the Holy Spirit to go before me and that it will be whatever God intends for it to be!! Thank you...
Tomorrow I start making phone calls to meet with people one on one regarding support for the next two years. I have been full of the fear of man and rejection regarding these meetings. Church this morning was so good as they reminded that fear is totally from the enemy (which I do know, but it is always a good reminder) and that God did not give us a spirit of timidity, that perfect love casts out all fear, and that as big as the 'mountain' in front of me is... it will never get any bigger than what it is...where as I can always grow and get bigger spiritually! Get out of my way, mountain, I am doing God's will here!! Halla!! :) My precious girlfriend from school reminded me that what I am doing is priceless and the lives that will be changed are a worthy cause! I am so grateful to have Truth spoken to me. I am even more grateful that God has already chosen these team members and roused them towards how He would have them participate in all He will be accomplishing in these next two years. Sending His word to the nations; so cool.
As mentioned before, I have started setting dates to the seminar's that I will be teaching on the Inductive Bible Study method. I know some of you have asked (Rhonda and Jungmee!) when, where, etc... so the first one will be at Bethany Christian Services in Modesto on Saturday August 17th from 9am-1pm. 3048 Hahn Dr. Modesto, Ca 95355. It will be $20. per person. Please email me at leahdesalles@gmail.com to register. I look so forward to sharing with you!! (Aaaaand I am soooo nervous about it so pleaaaaase pray!!)
I think I will wrap it up there... keep it simple. I would sincerely appreciate your prayers regarding "the team" God is raising up, these seminars, and the yard sale I will be having! THANK YOU SO MUCH... blessings!!! xoxo
ps... also, please be praying for our team teaching bible to pastors underground in a location I can not mention on the internet!! thank you!!
Friday, June 28, 2013
Home again~ but changed.
Well, shoot.
I have been meaning to write at some dramatic time like during a layover in an airport or something...but here I am... writing after getting home from the four walls that have known me the longest! Praise God I flew from Hawaii on time at 10:03pm and arrived in San Francisco California at 2:30am my time and around 6:30am California time. I had a three hour lay over before I flew to Sacramento- God is so good. I was dreading the three hour layover being so tired and not having slept much- but when I got the SFO and found my gate, I sat down and they started announcing an earlier flight to Sacramento. I went to the counter and asked...actually, I barely had to ask- the guy behind the counter was so friendly and got me right on the next flight! I called my dad to warn him I'd be in Sac earlier and as soon as I hung up- I boarded! An hour later I was in Sacramento. My body was starting to get really upset with me for not sleeping or eating in several hours. So I tried to relax a bit and in swift time my dad and stepmom were there to get me! Home by 11:10am..in bed by 11:20am... slept for 3 hours. Made myself get up so that I could sleep last night (which was NOT going to be a problem!) We are so used to go go going that when I woke up I didn't know what to do w/ myself. I washed my beloved blessing of a vehicle, charged the battery, had dinner w/ my brother and took it for a spin 'around the block.' I felt so grown up driving my truck!! It is really something to not have your own transportation for the better part of a year. I confess my legs are in great shape after walking all over that mountain... but oh the joy of hopping in your car to run errands at a distance! Praise You, God for your gifts to us!!
I have had $8. in my checking account for about a month. I wasn't freaking out because He has taught me to know better. When I need something, He will provide it; and everything in June had been accomplished...but here comes July ;) So! I traveled home and am scheduled to go to Palm Desert (Southern California) to visit my 'other parents.' I knew the gas of that would cost about $100. and I knew I could cancel if I didn't have the money by Monday (when I am scheduled to leave.) I just trusted that if it was God's will He would provide. (I don't know when visiting family is NOT God's will, but, timing possibly...so... I trusted.) I got home and an envelope had been sitting in my room for 3 months. It was from blood work that I had done a year ago. It was a refund check from overpaying last year! $178. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. He is so generous and on time, I cannot express. So I have money to go visit my 'other parents' and enough to cover my phone bill that will be coming in a week or so...plus a bit. Hallelujah.
It's strange to be home. Strange to think of all these winter clothes that belong to me. I will be having a yard sale in the next couple of weeks to earn money to print off the materials that I need to teach the seminars on how to study the bible- still working on the exact dates of those, but they are coming sooon!! I think most will be August dates, but we shall see... maybe one late July.
I am both nervous and eager to teach these seminars.
School ending was super emotional. So many months we had fought together to achieve our goal and when it was finally over it was-well- over. We cried and had a fantastic graduation dinner and slide show. All the faces that had become so dear. My best friends and I just clung to each other dreading the minute we had to let go. When we did it was just brutal. I love these girls beyond what words can express. To have fought so hard and so long for something while experiencing all the transformation that comes with it along the way must be a bit like having gone through war together. (Not an accurate comparison at all, but you get the gist of what I'm saying.) No one else can quite understand what you just went through or what it took out of you. All that you learned and what was poured INTO you. The bible nerd jokes and new language. Thank God for modern technology! We have been 'voxing' each other regularly with constant updates of flights and feelings. Thank God for Facebook (how many people can say that?!). That was a hard earned 48 units of credit and I am grateful for the gifts of my room mates and friends that went through it with me. Love those guys.
Now in September (just 9 weeks from now) I will be returning as staff. This means that I will grade the homework of the new students, have one on one counseling with them when they want or need it, teach...oh, Lord! Teach! and do all the things that need doing... which is anything and everything they tell me to do! I am eager to see how many nations we will be pouring into this year and be the truly sympathetic ear when they are struggling. It is a battle I have fought and am eager to help others fight well also.
I praise God for His faithful provision. I never had to go without my vitamins, I always had food to eat (even when it sucked) and people I could turn to. I absolutely know that I have grown stronger in my spirit through His and that I am not who I was 9 months ago. I have the foundation of God's word locked into my heart and understand His intentions for us through it. I am clear on what I believe and why I believe it. I have had questions answered and doctrine solidified. I look forward to continuing my education and pouring out to the nations all that has been given me.
If you EVER want to visit Kona- I hope you will! I hope you can sit in on a day of lecture and experience what God is doing and how He is moving. How we would love to have you!
In the meantime please pray about attending one of my Inductive Bible Study seminars. I would be honored if you would consider coming!!!
Thank you for your continued prayers and support!! Blessings.
I have been meaning to write at some dramatic time like during a layover in an airport or something...but here I am... writing after getting home from the four walls that have known me the longest! Praise God I flew from Hawaii on time at 10:03pm and arrived in San Francisco California at 2:30am my time and around 6:30am California time. I had a three hour lay over before I flew to Sacramento- God is so good. I was dreading the three hour layover being so tired and not having slept much- but when I got the SFO and found my gate, I sat down and they started announcing an earlier flight to Sacramento. I went to the counter and asked...actually, I barely had to ask- the guy behind the counter was so friendly and got me right on the next flight! I called my dad to warn him I'd be in Sac earlier and as soon as I hung up- I boarded! An hour later I was in Sacramento. My body was starting to get really upset with me for not sleeping or eating in several hours. So I tried to relax a bit and in swift time my dad and stepmom were there to get me! Home by 11:10am..in bed by 11:20am... slept for 3 hours. Made myself get up so that I could sleep last night (which was NOT going to be a problem!) We are so used to go go going that when I woke up I didn't know what to do w/ myself. I washed my beloved blessing of a vehicle, charged the battery, had dinner w/ my brother and took it for a spin 'around the block.' I felt so grown up driving my truck!! It is really something to not have your own transportation for the better part of a year. I confess my legs are in great shape after walking all over that mountain... but oh the joy of hopping in your car to run errands at a distance! Praise You, God for your gifts to us!!
I have had $8. in my checking account for about a month. I wasn't freaking out because He has taught me to know better. When I need something, He will provide it; and everything in June had been accomplished...but here comes July ;) So! I traveled home and am scheduled to go to Palm Desert (Southern California) to visit my 'other parents.' I knew the gas of that would cost about $100. and I knew I could cancel if I didn't have the money by Monday (when I am scheduled to leave.) I just trusted that if it was God's will He would provide. (I don't know when visiting family is NOT God's will, but, timing possibly...so... I trusted.) I got home and an envelope had been sitting in my room for 3 months. It was from blood work that I had done a year ago. It was a refund check from overpaying last year! $178. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. He is so generous and on time, I cannot express. So I have money to go visit my 'other parents' and enough to cover my phone bill that will be coming in a week or so...plus a bit. Hallelujah.
It's strange to be home. Strange to think of all these winter clothes that belong to me. I will be having a yard sale in the next couple of weeks to earn money to print off the materials that I need to teach the seminars on how to study the bible- still working on the exact dates of those, but they are coming sooon!! I think most will be August dates, but we shall see... maybe one late July.
I am both nervous and eager to teach these seminars.
School ending was super emotional. So many months we had fought together to achieve our goal and when it was finally over it was-well- over. We cried and had a fantastic graduation dinner and slide show. All the faces that had become so dear. My best friends and I just clung to each other dreading the minute we had to let go. When we did it was just brutal. I love these girls beyond what words can express. To have fought so hard and so long for something while experiencing all the transformation that comes with it along the way must be a bit like having gone through war together. (Not an accurate comparison at all, but you get the gist of what I'm saying.) No one else can quite understand what you just went through or what it took out of you. All that you learned and what was poured INTO you. The bible nerd jokes and new language. Thank God for modern technology! We have been 'voxing' each other regularly with constant updates of flights and feelings. Thank God for Facebook (how many people can say that?!). That was a hard earned 48 units of credit and I am grateful for the gifts of my room mates and friends that went through it with me. Love those guys.
Now in September (just 9 weeks from now) I will be returning as staff. This means that I will grade the homework of the new students, have one on one counseling with them when they want or need it, teach...oh, Lord! Teach! and do all the things that need doing... which is anything and everything they tell me to do! I am eager to see how many nations we will be pouring into this year and be the truly sympathetic ear when they are struggling. It is a battle I have fought and am eager to help others fight well also.
I praise God for His faithful provision. I never had to go without my vitamins, I always had food to eat (even when it sucked) and people I could turn to. I absolutely know that I have grown stronger in my spirit through His and that I am not who I was 9 months ago. I have the foundation of God's word locked into my heart and understand His intentions for us through it. I am clear on what I believe and why I believe it. I have had questions answered and doctrine solidified. I look forward to continuing my education and pouring out to the nations all that has been given me.
If you EVER want to visit Kona- I hope you will! I hope you can sit in on a day of lecture and experience what God is doing and how He is moving. How we would love to have you!
In the meantime please pray about attending one of my Inductive Bible Study seminars. I would be honored if you would consider coming!!!
Thank you for your continued prayers and support!! Blessings.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Giving Glory to the One!!
God is trippin' me out!!
He is unbelievably generous and attentive. It's amazing how being in the center of His will for you comes with such eerie provision and guidance. One wonders why they ever wasted time anywhere else!! Remember THAT when facing temptation!! (as we inevitably do...)
I wrote before that I knew God would get me home to accomplish all that needs to be done this summer- I didn't know HOW I would get there, but I knew if it was His will, I would get there...well... my dad and stepmom allowed the Spirit to rouse them and decided to give me some of their flyer miles to get me home and back again!! This is a miracle in more ways than one, and I am grateful...so grateful. When they called (which is also uncommon) I was blown away- upon hanging up I was literally on the floor laughing and crying, making strange noises that my room mates may have wondered about from the kitchen; nonetheless I could not control myself. I know He will provide, I try my best to walk in the faith of trusting He will provide, but it's not as easy as it should be...so He just keeps showing Himself to me in these huge ways. When it happens I cannot help but stand in such humbling awe. His timing is flawless- always exactly when it's needed.
Here is another story of my 'trying my best' to trust Him fully. (It's not that I don't think He is trustworthy- I KNOW HE IS TRUSTWORTHY- it is my earthly lack of trust in people from past hurts that transfers over to my God, even tho He is so undeserving of such hesitation.)
So- my cell phone bill was coming due. Funny how that happens every month ;) It was coming due and I did not have the full amount. I just prayed, "Lord- you know what my needs are. I am not going to ride the emotional roller coaster every time I have a need. I trust You." These words are easier prayed than done. It was going to be taken out of my account automatically in two days. The first day I called my mother- and asked for it. Way to trust God! She could not transfer money from her bank in the Netherlands to mine in California. So we were both praying. I called my best girlfriend...and asked her for it (so embarrassing). Way to trust God! She didn't get my message until way too late- the next day it would come out of my account. I called the phone company and asked them to not take it out automatically- this would cause my account to bounce and be charged $32. over what the bill would even be! The bill itself wasn't due until the 9th and they take it automatically on the 6th. I told my Mom jokingly, "I bought God a couple of days." (Like He needs it. such a joke.) SO!! The part you are waiting for... my room mate had a fundraiser that evening. I usually help her in that she is from India and all students from other countries must have an American to accept the money for some legal reason. So- we did her fundraiser. That evening she comes to me with her tithe. I, of course, tried to refuse like a good prideful child. I tell her the money is for her outreach, yada yada... She tells me in firm fashion that it is not her tithe just from this night, but from other things as well and that it is between her and God and she is insistent on tithing... wants to give it to me! ugh. so humbling. So- it's in cash. I can't get it to my bank in time or pay online with it. I am thinking, 'how can I pay my bill?' She asks me about it- because she thought my mom had paid it- I said, 'No, she hadn't. Couldn't.' "Oh!" she exclaims, "I can give you the tithe from my card if that is easier-" SO SHE PAYS MY PHONE BILL. Again RIGHT on time... I didn't need to buy God time or anything. He had it covered. He knew what she was going to do, He knew her tithes together would equal the exact amount of my bill. He knew the day and hour it was due. It is always especially humbling when missionaries give to other missionaries. It is a great feeling to be able to support each other in our needs. I confess I much prefer being on the giving end...but hey... God is in control. So- all that to give Glory to the One who is able to keep me and do exceedingly abundantly above or beyond anything I can wrap my head around.
As I come home (in 18 days!!!) I am overwhelmed by God's goodness to me. I have so much more to write, but you know how I feel about blogs that are too long. So please just be praying for the ability to accomplish all I need to while I'm home. I need to:
* Have a yard sale to earn money (yuck, right?)
* Go down south and visit my in-laws (yay!)
* Arrange and pay for health insurance for the next year (so I can be on the YWAM base)
* Practice and Teach 2/3 educational seminars on the Inductive Bible Study Method (who's in?!!!) (This also requires printing off the materials before the seminars... yard sale money?)
* Decide once and for all what to do about my truck...
(God is leading me towards shipping it here...which should cost about $1100. - about what I would pay for a moped. This will allow me to get to church next year and also take students places, grocery shop, run errands, etc. You know... HAVE TRANSPORTATION.)
* Try to see my doctor
* Try to see a dentist? (probably not)
* I know I am leaving things off :)
I covet your prayers!!! Love and thanks, guys!! xoxo
He is unbelievably generous and attentive. It's amazing how being in the center of His will for you comes with such eerie provision and guidance. One wonders why they ever wasted time anywhere else!! Remember THAT when facing temptation!! (as we inevitably do...)
I wrote before that I knew God would get me home to accomplish all that needs to be done this summer- I didn't know HOW I would get there, but I knew if it was His will, I would get there...well... my dad and stepmom allowed the Spirit to rouse them and decided to give me some of their flyer miles to get me home and back again!! This is a miracle in more ways than one, and I am grateful...so grateful. When they called (which is also uncommon) I was blown away- upon hanging up I was literally on the floor laughing and crying, making strange noises that my room mates may have wondered about from the kitchen; nonetheless I could not control myself. I know He will provide, I try my best to walk in the faith of trusting He will provide, but it's not as easy as it should be...so He just keeps showing Himself to me in these huge ways. When it happens I cannot help but stand in such humbling awe. His timing is flawless- always exactly when it's needed.
Here is another story of my 'trying my best' to trust Him fully. (It's not that I don't think He is trustworthy- I KNOW HE IS TRUSTWORTHY- it is my earthly lack of trust in people from past hurts that transfers over to my God, even tho He is so undeserving of such hesitation.)
So- my cell phone bill was coming due. Funny how that happens every month ;) It was coming due and I did not have the full amount. I just prayed, "Lord- you know what my needs are. I am not going to ride the emotional roller coaster every time I have a need. I trust You." These words are easier prayed than done. It was going to be taken out of my account automatically in two days. The first day I called my mother- and asked for it. Way to trust God! She could not transfer money from her bank in the Netherlands to mine in California. So we were both praying. I called my best girlfriend...and asked her for it (so embarrassing). Way to trust God! She didn't get my message until way too late- the next day it would come out of my account. I called the phone company and asked them to not take it out automatically- this would cause my account to bounce and be charged $32. over what the bill would even be! The bill itself wasn't due until the 9th and they take it automatically on the 6th. I told my Mom jokingly, "I bought God a couple of days." (Like He needs it. such a joke.) SO!! The part you are waiting for... my room mate had a fundraiser that evening. I usually help her in that she is from India and all students from other countries must have an American to accept the money for some legal reason. So- we did her fundraiser. That evening she comes to me with her tithe. I, of course, tried to refuse like a good prideful child. I tell her the money is for her outreach, yada yada... She tells me in firm fashion that it is not her tithe just from this night, but from other things as well and that it is between her and God and she is insistent on tithing... wants to give it to me! ugh. so humbling. So- it's in cash. I can't get it to my bank in time or pay online with it. I am thinking, 'how can I pay my bill?' She asks me about it- because she thought my mom had paid it- I said, 'No, she hadn't. Couldn't.' "Oh!" she exclaims, "I can give you the tithe from my card if that is easier-" SO SHE PAYS MY PHONE BILL. Again RIGHT on time... I didn't need to buy God time or anything. He had it covered. He knew what she was going to do, He knew her tithes together would equal the exact amount of my bill. He knew the day and hour it was due. It is always especially humbling when missionaries give to other missionaries. It is a great feeling to be able to support each other in our needs. I confess I much prefer being on the giving end...but hey... God is in control. So- all that to give Glory to the One who is able to keep me and do exceedingly abundantly above or beyond anything I can wrap my head around.
As I come home (in 18 days!!!) I am overwhelmed by God's goodness to me. I have so much more to write, but you know how I feel about blogs that are too long. So please just be praying for the ability to accomplish all I need to while I'm home. I need to:
* Have a yard sale to earn money (yuck, right?)
* Go down south and visit my in-laws (yay!)
* Arrange and pay for health insurance for the next year (so I can be on the YWAM base)
* Practice and Teach 2/3 educational seminars on the Inductive Bible Study Method (who's in?!!!) (This also requires printing off the materials before the seminars... yard sale money?)
* Decide once and for all what to do about my truck...
(God is leading me towards shipping it here...which should cost about $1100. - about what I would pay for a moped. This will allow me to get to church next year and also take students places, grocery shop, run errands, etc. You know... HAVE TRANSPORTATION.)
* Try to see my doctor
* Try to see a dentist? (probably not)
* I know I am leaving things off :)
I covet your prayers!!! Love and thanks, guys!! xoxo
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Update and just for kicks...
Hey, guys, just a brief update!
We are down to just 4 weeks left of this course and 9 books of the Bible left. It is crunch time and we all feel it. We are struggling for the end game motivation. The books are so jam packed with good stuff and it's all we can do to take it all in! I will miss these people so much. It's so strange to think of the beginning and how we barely knew each other. We have grown so close. What will I do without my Asian roommates cooking?!! (Just kidding, it's so much more than that-) Living on this mountain has gotten my legs in better shape than they have been in years and my cardio is kickin'!! :)
I will be home (God willing) for 8 weeks this summer. I have so much to do but I am confident God will allow for down time as well. I think I might sleep for a week when I get home! Actually- I know I won't- I'm already anxious about all that needs to be accomplished and NOT having homework every single day will probably drive me nuts as I transition. I won't know what to do with myself so accomplishing all I need to will be a good thing! I am going to have a yard sale and earn some money that way- I really hate yard sales- but hey, do what you have to do, right? We are to 'be ready to do every good work' (Titus 3:1). I will also be preparing for and ultimately teaching a few four hour seminars on the method of studying the bible I have learned here. A couple of you have asked me about that and I promise as soon as I nail down the dates I will let you know. It will probably be early July before I know. I appreciate your interest! I am excited (and nervous) to share with you!!! Please pray for me in this way.
I will also be going to Southern California shortly after arriving home. I am going to visit a girlfriend in LA and then my precious "Other Parents" in Palm Desert for retreat. What an amazing gift it will be to see and spend time with people I love. Can't wait.
Please pray for me- I am praying about selling my Truck. If you know me- you know the dagger this is. It is literally my last asset. It's paid for and a great little truck. Low mileage, dependable... I seriously thought I would have it forever- or until I drove it into the ground, you know what I mean!! It's not worth THAT much- but to me it's very valuable. It is my 'miracle truck.' The way God gave it to me is a miracle story. I know we aren't supposed to be attached to 'things' but I have given up everything to be here and the thought of that last thing- my truck- just for the sake of money just kills me. It doesn't cost me that much to keep it sitting at my mom's- and it is soooo nice to have a car when I go home; but I've committed to two years here and I'm not sure if paying to keep it sitting there (as small as the fee is for insurance) is wise when the money of selling it could go towards my rent next year. I also feel like, once my truck is gone, that's it, I don't have anything else in case of emergency. Don't get me wrong- I am absolutely aware of Who controls my emergencies. I am more confident than ever that He is in control. This truck quite literally was His gift to me- even now I am honestly not sure this is the course of action He would have me take. It might not be wise to sell it. I'm praying... I just ask that you pray, too. I value your prayers so very much. I cannot express my gratitude.
Okay, that's it... just one quickie funny for kicks before signing off. On Campus we are literally every nation. So one day I was walking and this big hunk of a kid was walking right along side me at the same time... I heard him say something so we just kinda started talking. I asked where he was from and he replied, "Ireland." "Ireland? Good Lord-" I replied in my best Irish brogue. (Sorry, I apologize to those who believe saying 'Lord' is wrong) "Isn't it something there!" His eye brows went up like he couldn't believe I just did that... and I just addressed it. "So was it awful? Just tell me, man, did it suck or was it okay?" His face had told me all I needed to know but he kindly said, "It was okay." "Nooooooo, it wasn't!" I said and we laughed together. "It sucked, huh!!!" Anyway-
now when I see him around campus I shout, "Ireland!" and we wave. It's so funny. He came by our fundraising table last week and I got him to do a California accent. It was great. My roommates, who now love the story, are ever asking me to do my Irish accent! hahahahahaha.
Love you guys, peace out! or should I say, "May the good Lord bless you and keep in the mighty palm of His hand." (In Irish, of course.)
We are down to just 4 weeks left of this course and 9 books of the Bible left. It is crunch time and we all feel it. We are struggling for the end game motivation. The books are so jam packed with good stuff and it's all we can do to take it all in! I will miss these people so much. It's so strange to think of the beginning and how we barely knew each other. We have grown so close. What will I do without my Asian roommates cooking?!! (Just kidding, it's so much more than that-) Living on this mountain has gotten my legs in better shape than they have been in years and my cardio is kickin'!! :)
I will be home (God willing) for 8 weeks this summer. I have so much to do but I am confident God will allow for down time as well. I think I might sleep for a week when I get home! Actually- I know I won't- I'm already anxious about all that needs to be accomplished and NOT having homework every single day will probably drive me nuts as I transition. I won't know what to do with myself so accomplishing all I need to will be a good thing! I am going to have a yard sale and earn some money that way- I really hate yard sales- but hey, do what you have to do, right? We are to 'be ready to do every good work' (Titus 3:1). I will also be preparing for and ultimately teaching a few four hour seminars on the method of studying the bible I have learned here. A couple of you have asked me about that and I promise as soon as I nail down the dates I will let you know. It will probably be early July before I know. I appreciate your interest! I am excited (and nervous) to share with you!!! Please pray for me in this way.
I will also be going to Southern California shortly after arriving home. I am going to visit a girlfriend in LA and then my precious "Other Parents" in Palm Desert for retreat. What an amazing gift it will be to see and spend time with people I love. Can't wait.
Please pray for me- I am praying about selling my Truck. If you know me- you know the dagger this is. It is literally my last asset. It's paid for and a great little truck. Low mileage, dependable... I seriously thought I would have it forever- or until I drove it into the ground, you know what I mean!! It's not worth THAT much- but to me it's very valuable. It is my 'miracle truck.' The way God gave it to me is a miracle story. I know we aren't supposed to be attached to 'things' but I have given up everything to be here and the thought of that last thing- my truck- just for the sake of money just kills me. It doesn't cost me that much to keep it sitting at my mom's- and it is soooo nice to have a car when I go home; but I've committed to two years here and I'm not sure if paying to keep it sitting there (as small as the fee is for insurance) is wise when the money of selling it could go towards my rent next year. I also feel like, once my truck is gone, that's it, I don't have anything else in case of emergency. Don't get me wrong- I am absolutely aware of Who controls my emergencies. I am more confident than ever that He is in control. This truck quite literally was His gift to me- even now I am honestly not sure this is the course of action He would have me take. It might not be wise to sell it. I'm praying... I just ask that you pray, too. I value your prayers so very much. I cannot express my gratitude.
Okay, that's it... just one quickie funny for kicks before signing off. On Campus we are literally every nation. So one day I was walking and this big hunk of a kid was walking right along side me at the same time... I heard him say something so we just kinda started talking. I asked where he was from and he replied, "Ireland." "Ireland? Good Lord-" I replied in my best Irish brogue. (Sorry, I apologize to those who believe saying 'Lord' is wrong) "Isn't it something there!" His eye brows went up like he couldn't believe I just did that... and I just addressed it. "So was it awful? Just tell me, man, did it suck or was it okay?" His face had told me all I needed to know but he kindly said, "It was okay." "Nooooooo, it wasn't!" I said and we laughed together. "It sucked, huh!!!" Anyway-
now when I see him around campus I shout, "Ireland!" and we wave. It's so funny. He came by our fundraising table last week and I got him to do a California accent. It was great. My roommates, who now love the story, are ever asking me to do my Irish accent! hahahahahaha.
Love you guys, peace out! or should I say, "May the good Lord bless you and keep in the mighty palm of His hand." (In Irish, of course.)
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Miracles...
Well I have managed to do it again. I have let entirely too much time go by between blogs and then there is SO MUCH to tell! Problem is- I can't remember it all!!!
What I can remember is to Glorify the One who has done much and just keeps doing much in my life.
My school fees were past due and my name was on the list on the board of those who owe. I know it sounds brutal but if you don't have the money they literally will send you home. This is a big campus and far too many times they have been taken advantage of by those who say they will pay later and never do- it's a tight ship and they are striving to be good stewards. That said- they are only humans and sometimes things are not handled as well as they could be but again... grace, grace. So I needed $871. in two days or I had to go to a meeting explaining what I was going to do immediately to get it. I had, of course, no idea. I had done one fund raiser, watched my accounts dwindle, seen one miracle regarding my phone bill, and gotten a letter from the IRS saying 'we aren't giving you your money'- so- I was concerned, but had laid it at His feet. I said, "Look, Lord... I trust You. I know I am in the middle of Your will for me. I know I am right where you want me, so, this can only come through You." I placed a sincere prayer request on facebook and our class had a time of prayer for the fees still needed. My classmates alone gave me $345. I was so humbled. These are people who don't have much, either!!! Then by the love of friends and family by the request on facebook as well as a deposit into my account by a brother who had no idea any of this was going on...dollar by dollar it was paid in full with a bit left over!!! (which will go towards my next quarter in the fall) I WAS BLOWN AWAY. In two days!! It is so humbling to rely on others. It shouldn't be when I read the scriptures of how even Paul was supported as he spread the gospel. Why should it be any different now? That is what I am preparing to do! But when you come from such a staunch work mentality it is difficult. It just is. Pride- it will get you every time. (He also paid my Indonesian room mates fees of $976. in three days and my Indian room mates ticket for outreach of $1300. in 5 days... He's on a roll!)
Needless to say God is teaching me so much about giving and receiving. I have no problems giving- that is by far easier for me than receiving- but God is wanting me to have a healthy perspective regarding how I work and what I work for- what I earn and what is by grace. Huge lessons. I have said for years, 'you can't out give God' but it is so true. On the last day of our 2nd Corinthians assignment I was praying before rushing into Philippians. I was praying, "Lord, let me not forget what you have spoken to me- let me not rush into this next book and leave behind how you are teaching me to 'give it away' and not worry about money.'
Let me back up. For my fundraiser my precious, Indian room mate- Octoli- had given me, yes given me- some henna ink and bindhi's that she had done a fundraiser with. They were left over and she gave them to me to do my own fundraiser. I did. Praise God it brought $125. I had a gal I know come up to me weeks later and ask how much I had left of the henna because her friend wanted to buy it from me to do her own fundraiser- only actually doing the henna tattoos for people as opposed to just selling the ink itself. I was thrilled! That could go towards my school fees. The gal never contacted me and when I asked my friend why- she said the gal couldn't afford it right now. I thought, 'oh, well I can't count on that money.'
The night I was praying not to forget what God had been speaking to me was at a worship service. As I prayed, 'Let me not forget to give it away...' my eyes fell on my friend who had approached me regarding the henna. "As freely as it has been given to you- give it away." I heard. My school fees were now paid- there was no reason for me to hoard the henna for myself- it had been a free gift to me. At first I thought, I should first speak to my friend who had given me the gift but the Lord said, 'No. She gave it to you. It's yours.' So.. I went to my friend. I said, "Tell your friend I'm going to give it to her." I cannot tell you the feeling it gave me.
If we hold things loosely- God can use them. If we cling to things and hold our grip firm around them they cannot be used. God has provided every thing we have needed. Not wanted- needed. And He has been pretty stinkin' generous with the wants, too! I am so blown away. It's hard to learn to flow in this way, but I am excited to get good at it. To not freak out when my bank accounts get to $.11. Yeah, cents. But to know, that somehow, someway- He will make a way for what needs to happen. I have a part, I have a role to play. Sometimes I will have to do more than other times. Not comfortable always...like asking... ugh, hate it. But He knows what and when things are required. I am headed home (for 8 weeks) in just 6 weeks for selling stuff to earn money and teach what I have been learning- I'm not sure how I am going to get there yet; but God does. I check flights and wonder what will happen when I find the right one, hehe.
I pray when I get home each of you will consider coming out to one of the seminars I will be teaching. I will give the places and times. It will only be a 4 hour class and cost $20.
Praise God from Whom all Blessings Flow!!! Hallelujah
What I can remember is to Glorify the One who has done much and just keeps doing much in my life.
My school fees were past due and my name was on the list on the board of those who owe. I know it sounds brutal but if you don't have the money they literally will send you home. This is a big campus and far too many times they have been taken advantage of by those who say they will pay later and never do- it's a tight ship and they are striving to be good stewards. That said- they are only humans and sometimes things are not handled as well as they could be but again... grace, grace. So I needed $871. in two days or I had to go to a meeting explaining what I was going to do immediately to get it. I had, of course, no idea. I had done one fund raiser, watched my accounts dwindle, seen one miracle regarding my phone bill, and gotten a letter from the IRS saying 'we aren't giving you your money'- so- I was concerned, but had laid it at His feet. I said, "Look, Lord... I trust You. I know I am in the middle of Your will for me. I know I am right where you want me, so, this can only come through You." I placed a sincere prayer request on facebook and our class had a time of prayer for the fees still needed. My classmates alone gave me $345. I was so humbled. These are people who don't have much, either!!! Then by the love of friends and family by the request on facebook as well as a deposit into my account by a brother who had no idea any of this was going on...dollar by dollar it was paid in full with a bit left over!!! (which will go towards my next quarter in the fall) I WAS BLOWN AWAY. In two days!! It is so humbling to rely on others. It shouldn't be when I read the scriptures of how even Paul was supported as he spread the gospel. Why should it be any different now? That is what I am preparing to do! But when you come from such a staunch work mentality it is difficult. It just is. Pride- it will get you every time. (He also paid my Indonesian room mates fees of $976. in three days and my Indian room mates ticket for outreach of $1300. in 5 days... He's on a roll!)
Needless to say God is teaching me so much about giving and receiving. I have no problems giving- that is by far easier for me than receiving- but God is wanting me to have a healthy perspective regarding how I work and what I work for- what I earn and what is by grace. Huge lessons. I have said for years, 'you can't out give God' but it is so true. On the last day of our 2nd Corinthians assignment I was praying before rushing into Philippians. I was praying, "Lord, let me not forget what you have spoken to me- let me not rush into this next book and leave behind how you are teaching me to 'give it away' and not worry about money.'
Let me back up. For my fundraiser my precious, Indian room mate- Octoli- had given me, yes given me- some henna ink and bindhi's that she had done a fundraiser with. They were left over and she gave them to me to do my own fundraiser. I did. Praise God it brought $125. I had a gal I know come up to me weeks later and ask how much I had left of the henna because her friend wanted to buy it from me to do her own fundraiser- only actually doing the henna tattoos for people as opposed to just selling the ink itself. I was thrilled! That could go towards my school fees. The gal never contacted me and when I asked my friend why- she said the gal couldn't afford it right now. I thought, 'oh, well I can't count on that money.'
The night I was praying not to forget what God had been speaking to me was at a worship service. As I prayed, 'Let me not forget to give it away...' my eyes fell on my friend who had approached me regarding the henna. "As freely as it has been given to you- give it away." I heard. My school fees were now paid- there was no reason for me to hoard the henna for myself- it had been a free gift to me. At first I thought, I should first speak to my friend who had given me the gift but the Lord said, 'No. She gave it to you. It's yours.' So.. I went to my friend. I said, "Tell your friend I'm going to give it to her." I cannot tell you the feeling it gave me.
If we hold things loosely- God can use them. If we cling to things and hold our grip firm around them they cannot be used. God has provided every thing we have needed. Not wanted- needed. And He has been pretty stinkin' generous with the wants, too! I am so blown away. It's hard to learn to flow in this way, but I am excited to get good at it. To not freak out when my bank accounts get to $.11. Yeah, cents. But to know, that somehow, someway- He will make a way for what needs to happen. I have a part, I have a role to play. Sometimes I will have to do more than other times. Not comfortable always...like asking... ugh, hate it. But He knows what and when things are required. I am headed home (for 8 weeks) in just 6 weeks for selling stuff to earn money and teach what I have been learning- I'm not sure how I am going to get there yet; but God does. I check flights and wonder what will happen when I find the right one, hehe.
I pray when I get home each of you will consider coming out to one of the seminars I will be teaching. I will give the places and times. It will only be a 4 hour class and cost $20.
Praise God from Whom all Blessings Flow!!! Hallelujah
Sunday, April 21, 2013
I am so, so grateful.
So much for posting every couple of weeks, eh?!
I see it's been almost a month since I reported that "I have a plan!" I praise God for it as it gives me direction, although now my brain is hard at work formulating a plan to get me to that plan, hehe. You know, the details. Let's be honest- the money, living arrangements, yard sale, fundraising, and teaching I have to do... good night! Remember when I waited until the last paragraph to bring up money? Blah ha ha! Desperation changes things.
I have a miracle that I want to share, tho...
Okay, so I got out of my cell phone contract because it was too much money a month and switched to a different carrier. (I could do a plug here for my new carrier, but some other time!) So getting out of my contract cost me $100. which was still so much better than paying the high fee each month- so I got out and they sent me a bill about 6 weeks later. It was for the $100. and a pro-rated bill that came to $58. So my bill was $158.70. Now I had an automatic withdraw set up for my phone payment each month- but this final bill came to me in paper. I was glad, because I didn't have the money and wanted to call and ask if I could make payments which I had heard you could. I had that bill sitting on my bed for like 4 or 5 days 'meaning' to call them. Finally one morning I knew I had better check the status of my bank account because of something else that may be coming out soon- I have a couple other small auto payments that come out- like the $3. for my website each month, $1.50 from the bank to use an ATM card, and $13. for my truck in California (which I am beyond regrettably praying about selling) So, knowing that I had $29. in my checking account I thought I'd better keep a close eye! When I logged on I saw the $158.70 debited from my account!! I gasped! But my account wasn't negative. Then I saw $158.79 deposit on the same day... Whaaaaat? I thought, "Did T-Mobile debit and then credit the amount right back?" You know how sometimes you go to a restaurant or something and they do that sort of thing...who knows why... but no... it said "Deposit" and I could click to see the ticket. I clicked to see the deposit but it was just a slip- no names on it, no information at all... Then I realized that the deposit amount was .09 cents more than the withdraw. Whaaaaat? I know this sounds nuts...but I totally dig the gal that works at the bank. She really helped me with my accounts before I moved here and was genuinely a treasure used by God the day before I left town. So... I was thinking... who else would have access to my accounts?? Did she see that I was about to go negative and help me out? She knows I'm a missionary- did she like- give me money?! I just had no idea how the exact amount I needed could have been deposited... well several hours later I was able to connect with my mother and low and behold! This miracle was explained...
My brother lives in our childhood home- my mothers residence in the states. He had overpaid the property taxes- so they refunded him, but in a check addressed to my mother. A second and even third check came to that address- again, one with my mothers name on it and a small one to me. My brother took those checks to the bank and directly deposited them into the account ON THE SAME DAY that T-Mobile charged me. It was THE EXACT AMOUNT (plus .09 cents) that was needed! So God gave me EXACTLY what was needed EXACTLY when I needed it. My account did not go negative or get dinged a charge, my bill was paid, and He AGAIN was showing me that HE IS FAITHFUL. He has me. Even with so little in my accounts, even with being in debt for my school fees, He has me. He has WHAT I NEED, WHEN I NEED IT. HE IS SUPER AMAZING AND BEYOND COOL!!! I am humbled to be His servant and tho it cost me sacrifices of my most treasured possessions (my animals and now maybe my truck), the stress and labor, it is SO SO SO SO SO WORTH IT. I cannot wait to see how He works over these next couple of years. It is an emotional road but- hey- it's His road. I am grateful. I am so, so grateful.
I see it's been almost a month since I reported that "I have a plan!" I praise God for it as it gives me direction, although now my brain is hard at work formulating a plan to get me to that plan, hehe. You know, the details. Let's be honest- the money, living arrangements, yard sale, fundraising, and teaching I have to do... good night! Remember when I waited until the last paragraph to bring up money? Blah ha ha! Desperation changes things.
I have a miracle that I want to share, tho...
Okay, so I got out of my cell phone contract because it was too much money a month and switched to a different carrier. (I could do a plug here for my new carrier, but some other time!) So getting out of my contract cost me $100. which was still so much better than paying the high fee each month- so I got out and they sent me a bill about 6 weeks later. It was for the $100. and a pro-rated bill that came to $58. So my bill was $158.70. Now I had an automatic withdraw set up for my phone payment each month- but this final bill came to me in paper. I was glad, because I didn't have the money and wanted to call and ask if I could make payments which I had heard you could. I had that bill sitting on my bed for like 4 or 5 days 'meaning' to call them. Finally one morning I knew I had better check the status of my bank account because of something else that may be coming out soon- I have a couple other small auto payments that come out- like the $3. for my website each month, $1.50 from the bank to use an ATM card, and $13. for my truck in California (which I am beyond regrettably praying about selling) So, knowing that I had $29. in my checking account I thought I'd better keep a close eye! When I logged on I saw the $158.70 debited from my account!! I gasped! But my account wasn't negative. Then I saw $158.79 deposit on the same day... Whaaaaat? I thought, "Did T-Mobile debit and then credit the amount right back?" You know how sometimes you go to a restaurant or something and they do that sort of thing...who knows why... but no... it said "Deposit" and I could click to see the ticket. I clicked to see the deposit but it was just a slip- no names on it, no information at all... Then I realized that the deposit amount was .09 cents more than the withdraw. Whaaaaat? I know this sounds nuts...but I totally dig the gal that works at the bank. She really helped me with my accounts before I moved here and was genuinely a treasure used by God the day before I left town. So... I was thinking... who else would have access to my accounts?? Did she see that I was about to go negative and help me out? She knows I'm a missionary- did she like- give me money?! I just had no idea how the exact amount I needed could have been deposited... well several hours later I was able to connect with my mother and low and behold! This miracle was explained...
My brother lives in our childhood home- my mothers residence in the states. He had overpaid the property taxes- so they refunded him, but in a check addressed to my mother. A second and even third check came to that address- again, one with my mothers name on it and a small one to me. My brother took those checks to the bank and directly deposited them into the account ON THE SAME DAY that T-Mobile charged me. It was THE EXACT AMOUNT (plus .09 cents) that was needed! So God gave me EXACTLY what was needed EXACTLY when I needed it. My account did not go negative or get dinged a charge, my bill was paid, and He AGAIN was showing me that HE IS FAITHFUL. He has me. Even with so little in my accounts, even with being in debt for my school fees, He has me. He has WHAT I NEED, WHEN I NEED IT. HE IS SUPER AMAZING AND BEYOND COOL!!! I am humbled to be His servant and tho it cost me sacrifices of my most treasured possessions (my animals and now maybe my truck), the stress and labor, it is SO SO SO SO SO WORTH IT. I cannot wait to see how He works over these next couple of years. It is an emotional road but- hey- it's His road. I am grateful. I am so, so grateful.
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